Ishmael
The Arabs claim descent from him. (The dead children of Gaza are his heirs.)
Figurative sense of “an outcast,” “whose hand is against every man, and every man’s hand against him” is from Genesis 16.12.

outcast
“an exile, a pariah, a person cast out or rejected”

pariah
from Tamil (Dravidian) paraiyar, plural of paraiyan “drummer” (festival drumming being a hereditary duty for lower castes in southern India)

The decision to cast(e) out rests with the group, society, or (perhaps divine) authority.

It rests with “you” and I can’t do anything about your rejection.

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hérétique
“one who holds a doctrine at variance with established or dominant standards,” from Greek hairetikos “able to choose”; hairein “to take”.
Heresy: from Greek hairesis “a taking or choosing for oneself, a choice, a means of taking; a deliberate plan, purpose; philosophical sect, school,” from haireisthai “take, seize,” middle voice of hairein “to choose”. Related: heresiarch (haeresiarcha, from Late Greek hairesiarkhes “leader of a school”. Also: Heresiarchy.

The decision to seize upon a heresy is on the hérétique/haireisthai; it is literally and etymologically a taking/choosing enabled by oneself.

I seize.

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I’m a broken soul so sinfully proud of its own scars and cracks, and I haven’t calmed down.
The only thing that I’ve got, been bothering me my whole life.
Anger is an energy. I could be right.
It’s not your job. It’s mine. To feel loved. To feel

‘better’.