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Please. Just stop it. When I listen to that shit you sound just as mad to me as Gollum Girl.

Examples

Il n’y a plus de lait. Tant pis, je boirai mon café noir!
There is no more milk. Oh well! I’ll drink my coffee black.

Of course I have to admit the possibility that I sound exactly that crazy now to you.

Tant pis.

***

It is Tuesday and I write again in real time. Three weeks since the Tuesday I landed here for real and interviewed.

They told me it would be two weeks–Now it has officially been three.

Everything screams to call them and see, but I wanted to get back on track with my spilling first, and be able to tell you cleanly that I don’t think it matters whether they hire me or not. The waiting damage has been done, inside my own head.

If they called and said Yes five minutes from now I’d take it and I’d be glad, because it would be so much easier.

But the greater part of me is in this moment craving the hard, scary way.

***

I just shot two minutes of video and now I intend to walk downtown and see if Adobe Springs Cafe will give me an omelette.

I’m hitting Publish on this post but it’s not fully written yet.

***

Okay. Now it’s fully written. The channel is up and

the first video is live. This is a test. This is only a test.