The whole point of bringing the fridge and the powerbank and all that kit was to have at least a freshly crafted salad every day, and maybe some hot-cooked meat every other night.

None of that happened even once.

We were still moving far too fast even on the best days, like the one in today’s video, and by the end of everything any hope of living gently and right was utterly curbstomped by other and worse priorities and habitual ways of being.

In the midst of that particular penultimate beating (metaphorical, and arguably consensual) I said out loud:

“Never again, never ever again, not for any reason whatsoever; Never.”

I meant it.

But you and I both know that I’ve said it and meant it before.

Just exactly like I said: No More Goddamn Cats.

Just exactly like I said a lot of shit about large things and small.

I don’t know whose fault that is really, but in the spirit of 躺平 I will accept at least my share of the blame, and then some.

Then I will continue trying against all rationality to make Better Choices.

Like these pictured here to bring us back up from the very bottom pondslime of despair, and lift spirits in spite of it all. Amen to the homebrew of Ana. Blessings upon the pumpkinseed.