Maybe it was self-grat; i dunno. But up late on both ends which feels awful fail.

In the end despite swearing I wouldn’t watch the debate I saw half anyway, and even now I’m soaking in the pointless analysis. AlJazeera, live in Nashville. Nothing changes.

A meme is emerging among people who think, about how voting for Biden is a terrible choice but what must be done. I heard someone, maybe Keith Olbermann, say it like this: ‘Sometimes you just have to clean the toilet’.

I was hung up before starting to spill this post and starting it and trying to spill it did not change anything either.

I just keep giving in far too much to things that gratify in the moment. I’m not beating myself up over it exactly, but again the AwfulFail phrase leaps to mind as perfect to describe how it makes me feel.

I have faith in myself to find a way out of the loop, and to, in the meantime, wear the very worst hair shirt available. This doesn’t help but it is what I do, and perhaps what must be done in response to the various and disparate darknesses within.