The way it’s always been, the way it will always be.

The October days whip by in a blur, taken up with little fights with the cyberian and tactile worlds both.

I think I’m slowly getting better.

I think I’m slowly coming to the end of that period where I wallow in distraction and indulgence because it feels so good to an addictive personality and I’ve never let myself go so deep into it before because I was afraid of starving.

The little fights, sure. But the real battle is with my own true nature.